Comic 1195 - Get a phone call

Posted on 18th Oct 2019, 5:18 PM in Like a Bullet from Behind
Get a phone call

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Morgenstern 18th Oct 2019, 5:18 PM edit delete
Morgenstern
You decide to practice accelerating yourself in the red. You believe you've taken into account all the key factors and can take enough precautions that you won't accidentally get yourself stuck, jump too far in any given direction, lose track of time, or... whatever other dangers may await.

As you ready yourself to disappear into the red, however--

"Whoa, hold up," Caius begins. You pause, and all eyes turn to him. He puts his finger to his ear as though listening to an earpiece... though, of course, his phone runs a bit deeper than that.

"I, uh..." Caius makes... a face, his confused stare jerking abruptly from nowhere straight to you. "Huh. Blondie, ya might not wanna do whatever you're doin'."

"Who is it?," Dr. Finch asks. "Who's talking to you, Caius?"

"Blondie is," Caius replies, sounding surprised by his own answer. He turns from Dr. Finch to lock eyes with you. "You're... you're on tha phone

and you keep yellin' about time."





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Morgenstern 18th Oct 2019, 5:32 PM edit delete
Morgenstern
OOC: So, I haven't updated in over two months.

(You've probably figured that out already)

Why is... a difficult question. Anxiety and all the shit I've almost lost has slowed it down, yeah, but why I'm now at a point where I struggle to put anything up is a deeper issue and I can't give you an easy answer. The shortest version is, it's gotten too big. There's too much minutiae, there's too many things for me to juggle, there's too many characters and events and ideas. It's all gone on way too long, and if I could focus exclusively on BiM I think it'd be alright... but balancing this comic, and games, and books, and everything else I'm doing to try and survive as an artist, well--

my wordpad file is no longer enough to keep up with BiM. I forget things. I have trouble getting into character. I lose track of where the story is and what's supposed to be happening in the background. I've had to take hiatuses to make money on the side, and those hiatuses just drag me deeper into being totally lost with my own narrative.

This was hard for me to come to terms with and it's even harder to admit here (it took me over two months, in fact). Every day I'm hemmoraging patrons and people are leaving the discord, though, and as much as it hurts to even hint at some kind of finality or to say "this is it, I have to stop," it hurts more to think people are just shaking their heads and walking away while I refuse to give an answer.

I don't want to.

That's the thing. I love BiM. I love BiM and I'm tired of giving up. I'm tired of half finished projects and unmet potentials and just... unceremoniously dropping shit. I keep trying to power through and it works, for a little while, but these hiatuses are getting longer and longer. I have options. I don't know if any of them are going to satisfy, but this is a choose your own adventure and I'm going to leave it up to you guys. This is what I have:

Option A: I write up an ending. You guys have surprised me countless times in the direction things have taken, so any conclusion I come up with will never be "real;" I have plans and ideas and can speculate as to how things would turn out, but it'll just be that. It'll be what I imagined was going to happen. I won't skimp, and this will be hitting every plot point I can remember, every detail I still have typed up, everything resolved in detail from now through the Carpenter fight, what's in Bunker X, and how the battle against Thale would go. It's a conclusion. I post it and I move onto something new and smaller (I will still be doing CYOA things, I'll just be doing a different one that maybe fucks me up less on a personal level). The story remains intact, but ends.

Option B: I continue the comic but I clean things up a bit. I have... an idea for how to pull this off without, like, doing a full blown reboot. It will be incredibly weird and I don't think it will make everyone happy, but the comic would (technically) keep going--just without a lot of the smaller plot threads and elements still dangling in the background. BiM has always been me; the characters are facets of me, the plot began as a textual fantasy war against capitalism and my own fondness for body horror. I've changed, and this BiM would be different, too. Slightly. But different. You would get more comic, but it wouldn't be the story you started with and a lot of the elements of that story will be gone.

Comments:

Baron11704 18th Oct 2019, 5:42 PM edit delete reply
I vote Option A
Lunar Waffles 18th Oct 2019, 5:48 PM edit delete reply
Lunar Waffles
+1
Nicolas 18th Oct 2019, 9:06 PM edit delete reply
+1
Reactinator304 19th Oct 2019, 3:30 PM edit delete reply
+1
psychoshen 20th Oct 2019, 8:45 PM edit delete reply
I'm voting for A as well. I think Option B is still viable as a sequel maybe?
AgentKuga 21st Oct 2019, 6:24 PM edit delete reply
AgentKuga
+1
anailater 18th Oct 2019, 5:44 PM edit delete reply
Hmm... In the end it really depends on what you'd prefer more? An ending only really works if you personally would feel satisfied with it. Reboots and things like them are hard sure, but they're good if you don't personally feel satisifed.

If nothing else don't feel ashamed about anxiety, anxiety is a bitch and no one should feel bad for having it. Instead feel proud for speaking up because you knew you wanted to!
5-5-13-6 18th Oct 2019, 6:19 PM edit delete reply
5-5-13-6
+1
Mathbird 18th Oct 2019, 5:44 PM edit delete reply
I'm honestly kind of conflicted. I like aspects of both A and B, but I fully recognize that it's a one-or-the-other deal. I think that if I have to choose, I'd rather see A than B, but it's not a strong preference.

Your mental health comes before this comic, and whichever option is less stressful for you is the one that you should go with. In other words, my vote is Author's Choice.
5-5-13-6 18th Oct 2019, 6:19 PM edit delete reply
5-5-13-6
+1
Lunar Waffles 18th Oct 2019, 6:26 PM edit delete reply
Lunar Waffles
+1
Eternity 18th Oct 2019, 6:38 PM edit delete reply
+1.

This has been, by far, my favorite comic that I've ever read. No matter what happens, now, I'll always be greatly appreciative that I got to read it!

Ultimately, though, it's your choice. I'm sure whatever you choose to do will be amazing.
Tych 18th Oct 2019, 6:54 PM edit delete reply
+1
Luminous Lead 18th Oct 2019, 8:21 PM edit delete reply
+1
Nicolas Arboleya 18th Oct 2019, 9:08 PM edit delete reply
+1
Chaostraveler 18th Oct 2019, 11:03 PM edit delete reply
+1
Japster 19th Oct 2019, 10:23 AM edit delete reply
+1
Reactinator304 19th Oct 2019, 3:39 PM edit delete reply
As someone who hasn't really invested myself into the comic all the way, but read it all and enjoyed the whole thing, I can say that it's been one of the best reading experiences I've had. You're a good writer, and even if you dont think you've got all the pieces still together, you've been able to do a lot taking just one point at a time. If you want us fans to go through and help put together a list of plot threads and notes to help you along, I'm sure several people would volunteer to do so, myself included. I can see the passion you put into it, and how much you love working on it, and even though it's ultimately your decision, based on what you think is best and what you need to do because of life, I would like to see you give it the finish it needs/deserves. Ill wait patiently for the entirety of the rest of the comic, no matter how long it takes, and I'm not the only one who will. I may be just one person voicing my opinion on behalf of the whole fanbase, but It's a good comic. It needs to end at some point, of course. And I'm looking forward to seeing the grand finale. +1 to option A, and please, take care of yourself. :)
TheFaceless96 19th Oct 2019, 7:09 PM edit delete reply
I wholeheartedly agree. I've loved this comic and I've followed this since the hospital chapter. I like aspects of both options and I feel that the best option would be to do what is easier on you. I wish you luck on whichever option is picked.
Nayru9572 18th Oct 2019, 5:46 PM edit delete reply
Well, I obviously can't speak for everyone, but personally I like the sound of option B more.
In the first place, because don't think I'd really enjoy a forced ending, even if it does hit most plot points needed for it.
Second, I... honestly, I'm not up-to-date with all the minor plot threads going on either. I only remember some of them because other folks keep bringing them up, or because I re-read part of the archive. It's wonderful that you've managed to create such a big, open world, but personally I can't enjoy it to its fullest because I have difficulty keeping the details straight. If I'm understanding it right option B would help a little in that regard, and it sounds like something I'd enjoy a lot more than a sudden ending.
Well, I think that regardless of what option you choose, I'll still be a fan. Neither option might lead to the ending I'd hoped for, but that's how it always goes with stories. And I have faith that you can make either option work in its own way.
Anyways, most important of all: make sure you don't force yourself to continue working in a way you don't enjoy, and you do you! I'm sure you'll retain many fans regardless of what you decide to do.
Xylas_Incarnum 18th Oct 2019, 5:52 PM edit delete reply
Xylas_Incarnum
Thinking A, Thale's the main driving point for all of this and beyond him I think this'd just devolve into a sort of villain of the week affair. Maybe an epilogue of what the party does after Thale's been taken care of. do they split up or stick together, and just generally a list of what they eventually went on to do, that sort of thing.

A comic(or any other story) overstaying it's welcome is worse than ending too soon. Besides, there's always sequels for continuing on down the line.
Anotherdamntimeclone 18th Oct 2019, 5:52 PM edit delete reply
Anotherdamntimeclone
I can definitely understand how this can be getting to big to understand and if you have to change the story if it were to keep going, i would definitely stay no mater what changed, you have made a great world that I really enjoy reading and speculating about. On the other hand, your mental health and wellbeing is important, if you want to write up the ending and move on to other things i would also stay and try to be a part of those because your writing is amazing. While I personally would prefer option B, i am perfectly fine if you go with option A. You’re an incredible person for doing BiM this long and if you need a break, feel free, and thank you for this comic, wether it ends or not. :)
Attack on Terraria 19th Oct 2019, 8:13 PM edit delete reply
Attack on Terraria
ah i see you're a glitchtale fan...
also +1 to this
Guest 18th Oct 2019, 5:59 PM edit delete reply
You said option A will fuck you up less... Maybe. I prefer that
5-5-13-6 18th Oct 2019, 6:18 PM edit delete reply
5-5-13-6
Well, He said that he would do projects that would fuck him up less. I dunno if that means doing B would still fuck with him, but from the phrasing, I wouldn't assume so.
Limrix 18th Oct 2019, 6:05 PM edit delete reply
Blood is Mine is the best thing I've ever read on the internet, whatever you decide to do, Matt, I'm truly grateful for that.
5-5-13-6 18th Oct 2019, 6:16 PM edit delete reply
5-5-13-6
I... Wow. This is a tough choice you've given us. A really tough one.

Before I give my answer, I'd like to share something about me:
I like making stories in my head. I would never dream of writing most of them down, and some of them are just me using other's characters to do a little funny idea I've had. Think of it as a cross between fanfiction and your discord's face chat, with a little bit of everything else thrown in, and without the loss of dignity these stories would usually cause. I love doing this. If I was ever to tell people about them, I could go on for hours. I've made them go from magic to time travel to complete insanity and then back again. I've also, for my favourite ones, the ones I love but It's been just a wee bit too long and I've forgotten how it started, starting anew. If it's been too long then I'll change the focus of the story, the point of the story, or even what kind of story it is. If it's been too long then I'll end them, in something as dementedly poetic as I can in my brain. I can't just leave them hanging, I really can't. They mean so much to me that I think that leaving them would feel like leaving an old friend to die on your porch.
To be fair, that paragraph had little to do with you. That was all me. But... I love your story. It's one of my favourites. I've literally made references to this story in my day-to-day life.

I won't sit here and tell you what to do when we are talking about your life. Do what you want. Admittedly, And I say this because you only deserve real honesty, If you change Blood Is Mine I may not find the new stuff interesting. But I'll always owe you for what you have so far. You do great work, and I am proud to say that the reason I made a comic fury account is to subscribe to this comic.
So... Thank you.

Also, wow, I didn't expect to go off on a tangent like that. I was gonna just give you a choice and be done with it, and now I feel anything short of letting you decide would be something I would eternally regret.

TL;DR: Guys, this is Blood Is Mine. It'll be awesome whatever happens.
Macheman7 isn't logged in 18th Oct 2019, 6:33 PM edit delete reply
Oh. Well, I mean.
Honestly, I'd love to see BiM keep going. But it's a behemoth. I get that. And, y'know, I have a friend who I was reading the comic with for a while. It'd be nice to be able to tell her there's an ending. It might not be the one I wanted, but it'll be one I respect.

Or I could ask you take the gardening shears to BiM. Which is... Also difficult, sorta, given that the comic to this point has been a torrent of blood and a pruned edition would be like sticking the ocean in a funnel, I guess.

Really, I'd prefer to see it keep going, but frankly, I think maybe it ending would be better. It will give you opportunity to recover, move on to other projects, and whatever else you need to do.
Frankly, I've never known what all you do outside of BiM, though I've caught glimpses. But I have read some from your other comics. You write well. I like you, not only what you make. I hope you'll succeed in wherever you go next.

Option A.
Luminous Lead 18th Oct 2019, 8:21 PM edit delete reply
+1
fishworshipper 18th Oct 2019, 6:40 PM edit delete reply
As I see it, the most important part of a story is the ending. Paring this one down and having it continue for even longer will, I feel, ultimately defeat the purpose of paring it down to begin with while still retaining the negative aspects of paring it down.

I would rather have a strong, understandable, if somewhat hollow conclusion than that. Option A.
fishbulb 18th Oct 2019, 6:42 PM edit delete reply
Honestly, while I would be a little sad to see the story end, I'd rather see it end. A lot of comics I read just kind of stop, and I'd not like that to happen here. For me, it's option A, but with the caveat that if MM ever wants to revisit the Blood is Mine universe, he could do option B as an "alternate universe what if" comic.
Chaostraveler 18th Oct 2019, 11:07 PM edit delete reply
+1
Skullrama 18th Oct 2019, 6:46 PM edit delete reply
I get it - this beast has grown completely out of control. Which has been part of the fun! But yeah, its obvious that trying to keep one's head wrapped around this thing is a struggle - it's hard enough to do it as a 'player', with a collective audience there to correct me if miss something. Being the one responsible for keeping everything straight would have me constantly worrying about someone going 'Wait a second, but what about...' as they point out a major plothole I just created. So.... yeah, I had a feeling that at least part of the delay was 'where the hell do I go from here'.

I think getting a conclusion on all the great big jumble of things we've opened up would ultimately feel more satisfying than rendering most of them irrelevant and moving on to something else, so, Option A. Endings are bittersweet, but they make the whole package of a story a much more fond memory than just kinda... trailing off.
Hari_Seldon 18th Oct 2019, 6:53 PM edit delete reply
Option C: Option A then Mine doesn't die and Option B (space alien and god adventures) is a future possibility.

But if I had to pick between Option A and Option B I would pick Option A, because I wasn't really here for the CYOA I was here for the good story and Option A would give that.

Who knows maybe there are more stories in the Blood is Mine universe so long as they are of manageable size. If Mine is not dead at the end of Option A, then space adventures with the aliens and gods are a possibility (a kind of Option B) if it's worth it.
Tych 18th Oct 2019, 7:39 PM edit delete reply
+1 Option C
Twyll 18th Oct 2019, 9:30 PM edit delete reply
I would very much like to see further adventures in the BiM universe where Mine has become an actual goddess, and the new perspective characters are working for/with her for the sake of justice and hugs for all. I feel like that really opens up the potential for all kinds of interesting stories in the future. What kinds of people end up following Mine's example and becoming devoted to her cause? What sorts of stories might we see from them?
Null Winter 18th Oct 2019, 7:14 PM edit delete reply
Option C: Build a time machine, go back in time, and help younger you finish Mushroom Go.

More seriously, you are building a history of letting personal issues kill projects and ruin your enjoyment in life. I recommend consulting a specialist at some point. It hurts to see so much of your potential die on the vine.

As for BiM: Option A, if you're sure you can do it without pruning out too much.
Mochi 18th Oct 2019, 7:31 PM edit delete reply
Mochi
look, maybe you didn't mean it to be, but this comes off as incredibly rude. god forbid someone's mental health struggles don't go away and continue to affect their life. or they not have access to affordable mental health care. or there be any number of other factors not known to you, an outsider.

:/
Skullrama 18th Oct 2019, 9:03 PM edit delete reply
Yeah, I'm gonna have to agree that, at the very least, your phrasing needs some major work. 'Letting' personal issues kill projects is a pretty crappy thing to say... Implying that someone could just choose to do something about it instead among a lot of other shitty assumptions.

Try to be a little more mindful of what the things you say imply to and about others, maybe.
Null Winter 21st Oct 2019, 9:00 AM edit delete reply
Alternatively, perhaps don't be overly sensitive to insults and slights that simply aren't there, especially in a message written primarily out of concern for someone's long-term well-being. Moreso when the message isn't addressed to you; I hate agreeing with internet trolls for once, but whiteknighting on something like this doesn't help anyone and may start a protracted argument.

The fact of the matter is, I have (secondhand) watched Morgenstern battle with procrastination, anxiety, depression, and other issues for years now. He's made multiple comments throughout that time about underlying issues making him unhappy; if someone's life is affected that much and that often, then seeking counsel is probably a good idea. Attacking my word choice that you personally disagree with doesn't change anything about that.
Skullrama 21st Oct 2019, 10:56 PM edit delete reply
If your goal is not to start an argument, and not to be a jerk, is it really that hard to say 'It wasn't meant that way, sorry if it came across like that, I just want to see him get better and we're all on the same side here' as opposed to 'actually, you are in the wrong for implying anything I said was wrong or could be taken badly, mind your own business and shut up'?

One is a much better look than the other.
Mochi 22nd Oct 2019, 11:18 PM edit delete reply
Mochi
alternatively, you could show concern by actually showing concern and not using wording that is basically blaming someone for succumbing to things that are ultimately beyond their control. you say you've watched this secondhand? morgenstern is one of my closest friends and i have seen first hand, front and center, the toll these things take on him. your concern, which i believe that you believe is coming from a genuine place, comes off as incredibly rude. you don't "let" anxiety and depression control your life. they can be crushing and debilitating. i deal with anxiety myself that, at times, has made it hard for me to even get out of bed in the mornings due to sheer existential dread. to say that someone is letting their own poorly wired or chemically deficient brain make them a prisoner in their own life is like saying someone with muscular dystrophy is letting their muscles waste away on them. they can't control it. if i could make my brain not be terrified at the prospect of making a goddamn phone call i would have ascended to a higher plane of existence years ago.

and above all, therapy is not a magical cure-all. it, and the medicines that would no doubt be prescribed to manage disorders, are also incredibly expensive if you don't have health insurance, and that's assuming one lives in an area that isn't ass backwards and has professionals who are even willing to treat depression.

you didn't take anything into account, you didn't consider that maybe he's tried this already, maybe he's already done all he can, you just rolled up in here with "hurr hurr tRaVeL bAcK iN tImE aNd StOp BeInG a WeEnIe" and expected people close to this to not take offense? really?

get over yourself.
Dangerousgirl105 18th Oct 2019, 8:02 PM edit delete reply
Option B because many of us want the series to continue but your mental health is more important. But if we go with A, the ending would seem to be sudden despite the long journey. But whatever you choose, we are here with you!
Mochi 18th Oct 2019, 8:05 PM edit delete reply
Mochi
i vote option a. i'd rather a satisfying conclusion than something that drags on forever.
lil Joshu 18th Oct 2019, 8:09 PM edit delete reply
lil Joshu
Just a thought... do a kickstarter. Set a goal that lets you hire on people to help you. And if you hit it, BIM goes to a next level, and if you don't hit it, go with option A or B?

I dunno, sorry if I'm putting on more pressure. As one of the higher-donating patreons, I was always rooting that you'd make it big with this.
Sekwel 18th Oct 2019, 8:35 PM edit delete reply
Option B probably sounds great and probably feels like it'd make everyone happier, right?

In my own experience -- wherein I am hitting the same wall, hard, with what is my largest ongoing creative effort that I have already once rebooted -- I think going with option A will make you feel the best about the project when all is said and done.

Plus, you'll get to apply those energies and new ideas to something that won't have the added pressure of "I already give this a second shot and expectations are high." Right now, the second wave of burnout I'm experiencing is kinda worse because of that.
Twyll 18th Oct 2019, 9:05 PM edit delete reply
I honestly think either option would work for me, whichever gives you the most satisfaction. I'm curious what option B would end up being, but I think anything you come up with for option A would be satisfying and good.

If you want to do smaller projects set in the BiM universe, with different perspective characters, that might be a good option for keeping this wonderful world of yours going without the massive tangle of characters and plot threads. Or you could start something new and we'd all be happy for that too! We like your stuff, whatever form that stuff ends up taking.

Please do your best to take care of yourself above everything else.
Limrix 18th Oct 2019, 10:55 PM edit delete reply
Limrix
+10

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LKRhv2W_4R0
"Time is like a bullet from behind; I run for cover, just like you. Time is just a fiction of our minds; I dance the same dance, just like you."
Daniel 18th Oct 2019, 9:34 PM edit delete reply
I...I cannot *believe* nobody has offered you an Internet hug yet. You deserve one no matter what, but also, *here* of all places...!
PurpleKetchup 21st Oct 2019, 4:03 PM edit delete reply
I vote for additional hugs.
Cyrene DuVent 25th Oct 2019, 10:10 PM edit delete reply
+1,000
Justarandomguyyoudontknow 18th Oct 2019, 9:53 PM edit delete reply
I think you should do neither. A awesome work can be completely destroyed by a bad/unsatisfying ending, similarly, a reboot can tarnish the memories of what it once was.

I rather remember BiM as the amazing story that never got completed then the one with a bad ending or a unsatisfying reboot.
wierdweblurker 18th Oct 2019, 9:55 PM edit delete reply
wierdweblurker
Matt, you've created a wonderful world that we all enjoy having influenced. And for that I thank you. But if it comes down to it, you've set us up for a climactic ending, and I'd much rather see this comic end at its height than gradually degrade in quality. Besides, this group is definitely a bunch of completionists; we'll run down every plot point we can find if you give us half a chance. Take option A, and dial up the body horror on Carpenter. We'll end as we began: fighting a giant monster we're only halfway prepared for.
pkrankow 18th Oct 2019, 10:15 PM edit delete reply
pkrankow
I am not fond of reboots. That said, you are also a novelist. I see this cleaned up and published via Amazon Kindle.

Still needs an ending. Not ALL the ends need tied in, just the major pieces of fabric. There are numerous threads that can be left hanging or clipped off...or back to Amazon for some spinoffs.

I like A: write more big chunks with less audience input so an ending can be made properly.
Chaostraveler 18th Oct 2019, 11:51 PM edit delete reply
+1

This. Wierdweblurker, Pkrankow and Kumondo pretty much sum up my feelings here. This has been an awesome ride, while I'm sad to see it end I've loved every minute of it and would love a conclusion. I personally have nothing against reboots, and several of my favorite shows, comics and games have shown they can be done good. If nothing else, you've opened up the possibility of alternate universes in the story already so there's nothing to stop you from doing a new what if/retcon story if you wanted to start over with a cleaner story or whatever.

I also, would love to see this collected into a compilation or on Kindle or something. I love webcomics, and comics in general, but sometimes? I kinda hate serialized stuff. ... Go ahead and throw internet trash and such at me, but I've had less and less time to sit down and just go through my comic feed. I've got over 600 unread comic pages according to the icon, and that's only the stuff that I remembered to find feeds for. I'm sure there are dozens of comics that I loved to read over the years that have made leaps and bounds that I've forgotten to check because I have a horrible memory and a glitchy attention span. Combine that with moderate depression and a occasionaly getting a bit obsessed with things (like a good story or game) and you have the makings of a bit of a mess and a huge backlog of things that you just can't bear to throw aside for any number of reasons. (There was a comic on Nerf Now! about a month ago now that sums up my Steam Library pretty well as a matter of fact)

Ultimately? I have found too many stories online that I fell in love with, only to have them vanish or just...stop. Sometimes, they come back from the grave &/or get a bit of a retcon (Looking at you Undead Friend and Parallel Dementia!). Sometimes, things need to end but it doesn't have to be sad (well, excepting tragedies, I suppose). Everything has to end at some point, so while we may have helped steer the course and muddy the waters, it's your ship Matt. Let's end this the way it began: with a bang, a whimper of fear and a great big scary monster. I can't remember how I stumbled onto this (and Nast: the Enchanter) but I loved every minute of both stories. I'm with you all the way whatever you decide, and hope to see more after that.
Kumondo 18th Oct 2019, 10:20 PM edit delete reply
Kumondo
There's so much that I wanna say that if I said it all It'd become excessively long set of paragraphs that would lose track of it's point. I'm still going to say a lot.

Morgenstern, I am a big fan of you and your work. My only regret with BiM is not finding and becoming a part of it sooner. Your talent with worldbuilding, dialogue, character development, storytelling and art is phenomenal and inspiring. However the story goes from this point, I have full confidence that you can make it end well, and that whatever project you put you mind to next will be equally awesome.

I just want to thank you so much for letting us be a part of this world and community you've created. Not just the fact that this is a choose you're own adventure comic, but even the privilege of reading such an incredible work at all. This is far and away my favorite webcomic, and it honestly means a lot to me. I've got the medium size "Blood is Mouth" pillow from the store and it legitimately helps me sleep at nights. [Quick plug for the store to everyone else; it's never too late to by merch and show a little bit of support. :-) ]

My vote of the two is for option A. (Though I like a couple of the side suggestions like authors choice.) This is a story that does deserve an ending, rather than just fizzle out. After that, we'll see what the future holds. Just be sure to take care of yourself first, and know that we will continue to support you.
Matanui3 19th Oct 2019, 1:45 AM edit delete reply
It feels like the characters are getting really close to an ending as it is. They just gotta stop Thale, and they're already *so close*.

And hey, maybe if you finish this, you can get to work on GAG: ORDER. We don't really need art for that, we just need you to finish writing.
Michael Chandra 19th Oct 2019, 3:25 AM edit delete reply
It sounds to me like A would be more satisfying to a lot of people, and it would help you be less frustrated due to having to cut parts out. So I vote A, under the condition that A isn't worse for your health than B. If B is better for you, please take care of yourself and do that.
fellow 19th Oct 2019, 4:18 AM edit delete reply
fellow
I vote for A. I'd like to see the current story finish. I can't say I'd like the prospect of not giving input any longer, but I'd prefer it over a retcon by a long shot.

And thank you for doing the hard thing and continuing the story in some form, rahter than dropping it altogether.
YetAnother 19th Oct 2019, 5:09 AM edit delete reply
YetAnother
I personally like Option A very much. We've been preparing for a boss battle for quite a long time, so let the comic go out with an epic boss battle. It sounds cool.

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Action suggestion: GO FUCK ASSHOLES UP.
zophah 19th Oct 2019, 12:12 PM edit delete reply
I agree with a lot of the points given here. I'd choose A. And as for my own input on the matter, I believe the best part of ending Blood is Mine is seeing what the next story will be. =)
Blue_Elite 19th Oct 2019, 4:01 PM edit delete reply
As the guy that had to re-read the entire comic to make that inventory list, I completely understand what you mean. There are so many little details and you really can't skim through without possibly missing something small but important. This project got big, so big in fact I stopped making suggestions because the story went far and above anything I could possibly imagine; and so I just became a reader rather than a contributor.

Given how your other CYOA went, I really have no problem with either continuing this comic but with some thinning or wrapping this up and starting something new. You really are a great writer despite the setbacks you've had to endure. I'm sure whatever you go with will still be great.

So my vote is going to be a cheat: Whatever you prefer.
If you feel like this story has gotten too big and you'd only be continuing (in the simplified manner you stated of course) because of the fans, then go with A; complete the story and move on.
If you truly want to continue the story and you just want to clean up some of the minutiae and streamline the process, go ahead with B and you can always go with A if you (or the readers) don't like the revised version.
twister1398 19th Oct 2019, 4:38 PM edit delete reply
Thank you for taking together the courage needed to write so honestly about how this story affects you personally.

For me, BiM is one of the most creative, catching and surprising comic/story. Despite the two month hiatus, I kept checking daily for news or an update. As a person who struggles with creativity, I offer you my greatest respect for your fantasy, for every plot twist, for every monster you have created...

I vote for Option A because I want to know how the story was planned to go. I have been longing for BiM to progress more quickly, so I finally want to get to read what else you have in stock for us. And I agree that there are too many loose ends to tie them all up, I don't even remember all of them.

As sad as BiM ending will be, your health must stand above all our satisfaction and hunger for horror, plot twists and crazy fantasies.

Thank you for so many hours of catching reads!
Aston A 20th Oct 2019, 8:50 AM edit delete reply
Great webcomic.

Draining. Option A: Then publish it and come back to it later.

You'll feel much better for a fresh start.

Mochi.

HEY.

Mochi.

Thanks for supporting option A.
Mochi 22nd Oct 2019, 11:29 PM edit delete reply
Mochi
i still don't like you, just so you're aware.

but i respect that you've toned it down in comparison to the shit-eating-ness of prior comments.
Aston W 24th Oct 2019, 12:30 AM edit delete reply
Mochi.

HEY.

Mochi.

This story isn't about you.

Option A +1
GoldenAstronaut 20th Oct 2019, 12:34 PM edit delete reply
I vote Option A, you have put a lot of time and effort into making this and I knew it was stressful but not this bad. You need some time to rest, to recover and gather your thoughts, just finish it and take a break. You've done a great job.
GoldenAstronaut 20th Oct 2019, 12:38 PM edit delete reply
I have had a thought stored away for a long time but I'm not sure about it. It could end this series but I'm not sure about anything at this point.
B 20th Oct 2019, 7:11 PM edit delete reply
Hi as someone sugested you can make 2 part of comics leter sikłel or something (my english is bad sorry) most important is your helth and well being becouse if you lose them then it all can be over i watch youtube animation stickman cant fight guy make 1 video a year but it is a masterpise BIM is even biger you made somthing mind blowing just remembering story and all details is hard not to mention making it you can be proud of your work its the best comicks i found so far in my opinion. Do what make you hapy with the story take breake drop it or take help of people and maki it something biger that comicks remind me of tellathale studio games where player chose the flow of story so maybe get other autors aand make something similar more autors more storys to read more time to make next chapters becouse patreons end folowers woud read other story while waiting for next chapter that also a option becose as long as you live you can do something so care for yourself best of luck and thenks for oportunity to read such amazing story. BD
dasno 21st Oct 2019, 12:12 AM edit delete reply
option what makes you happiest and healthiest you.
Sabinescu 22nd Oct 2019, 4:33 AM edit delete reply
I've been reading BiM since June 2018. It's been a great entertainment, and the best thing I've read in the internet for sure. Thank you Matt for all these months of a really big history. I think Option A should be the most dignifying ending for it.
Buster 22nd Oct 2019, 5:33 PM edit delete reply
I'd vote for wrapping it gracefully. At this point I'd totally go for a printed copy of the completed story.
Aston Whiteman 24th Oct 2019, 2:47 AM edit delete reply
+1 for printed/cbr.
Crestlinger 23rd Oct 2019, 3:47 AM edit delete reply
Definitely Option A, ideally with an epilogue. Mainly to be able to look back and say that I made This happen. From waking up in a hospital to the quantum phone call at present it's been one Hell of a ride and spawned growth in and of itself (looks at sidebar on the left). As with all good rides though, to remain so they must end. So write a conclusion to turn anxiety into triumph (though from where I'm standing you're there already with what has Been accomplished and survived throughout the duration of writing this) and inspire those who come after, if nothing else, then that a hug at the right time can save a soul. *ALL the hugs* ^^
I leave ye with a Blessing of Music:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6QhwWghC9Ec
WalkerOfSorrow 23rd Oct 2019, 2:57 PM edit delete reply
Hey MM, I hope it's not too late for me to respond.

I have a somewhat nuanced idea that may work for both parties. Hopefully. How about you do Option A, for now, but put in the work to begin a new story in the BiM universe? No Mine, no ancient blood aliens of the Red, none of the major cast members we've had (maybe cameos from some smaller ones). You could then implement what you're saying about Option B -- make it more concise, more streamlined, implement whatever you had in mind for that.

I think my suggestion would be very constructive, would give us followers closure, but would also allow you to use the world you've crafted and allow us to continue following it.
Memo 24th Oct 2019, 9:54 AM edit delete reply
Memo
I too would prefer an ending.
The last 2 years have been quite the journey, and it deserves a proper end.
that said, hopefully there will be room for a sequel some time in the future.
Take care of yourself, and thank for all the fish blood ;)
Nabb 25th Oct 2019, 5:03 PM edit delete reply
Nabb says Author's Choice.

We're good, man. Do your thing. Breathe. I've said it before, I'll say it again, we'll still be around if and when you decide you need to change things up for your own good.

I just hope you let go of the guilt you're feeling over this. Make your art. Make it yours, and make it in a way that works for you. We appreciate the ongoing explanation, but you don't owe us any justification.

I'm looking forward to wherever it goes, and whatever happens next.
Nabb 25th Oct 2019, 5:03 PM edit delete reply
Nabb says Author's Choice.

We're good, man. Do your thing. Breathe. I've said it before, I'll say it again, we'll still be around if and when you decide you need to change things up for your own good.

I just hope you let go of the guilt you're feeling over this. Make your art. Make it yours, and make it in a way that works for you. We appreciate the ongoing explanation, but you don't owe us any justification.

I'm looking forward to wherever it goes, and whatever happens next.
Cyrene DuVent 25th Oct 2019, 10:16 PM edit delete reply
I'd vote option A. Of course, ultimately, you shouldn't do anything that will do harm to your mental state, but I think that it would be more satisfying to get a conclusion to the main arc rather than drag it on. However, I definitely agree with the idea of leaving some of the smaller plot threads loose, to give the possibility of more stories, whether by you sometime in the future, another author, or just the readers in our heads. No matter what you choose, I will fully support you; BiM has been a magical experience and I am forever grateful that you made it possible
Tobias23 26th Oct 2019, 5:53 PM edit delete reply
I vote for option A as well. However, take care of yourself first, Morgenstern :)

It's funny, I actually thought about posting a comment on why I haven't been a frequent reader for a while now as well. And, interestingly, it lines up perfectly with what Morgenstern wrote.

(And let it be said, most of the reason I wasn't around as of late was because I was struggling with getting on my feet as a writer as well.)

So here goes. When BiM started, it was weird body horror set in a hospital, and no one really knew anything about what was going on. The scope was small, and decisions had to be reached quickly. There was an urgency to the story, and a lot of mystery.
As BiM chugged along, Morgenstern extended the setting in beautiful ways, giving us all a complete city to explore and go nuts in. There still was that feeling of urgency – having to rescue Caius, thugs coming at us in jeeps, that sort of thing.
I might be wrong, but I think the turning point came when we infiltrated Hope's church (I might be wrong though; this is also the point in the story were I started to participate in the comments). We devised the perfect plan, found great solutions, pushed our blood powers to the limit … everything went smoothly and we were happy. What followed was … more of the same. We explored our powers more and more, collected stuff, built our army up, etc … and while I enjoyed the settings, suddenly, the sense of urgency was off. It felt like we were playing The Elder Scrolls and had taken a break from the main quest, digging through people's wardrobes and helpless bandit's caves, finding ever more wonderful loot. The urgency was gone. Carpenter didn't attack. Thale might as well have been nonexistent, as we got deeper and deeper into the lore.

Don't get me wrong, I don't want to blame anyone for wanting to learn more about the world of BiM, and it _is_ a wonderful, well-written world, but the comic, at some point, ceased to be a story and became this vast, hulking monstrosity of our collective making that only meandered along. I didn't feel like Carpenter or Thale posed any risk to us anymore, since I honestly _knew too much_ about what we could do. So reading and commenting about how we could learn even more, become even more powerful? I'd had a tad too much of that already.

Again, I don't want to point any fingers, screeching "you/we/those guys ruined BiM", I just thought I'd add my two cent as to what caused the whole swelling up of the story. At times, prodding the players and forcing them to go unprepared is necessary, and it certainly was what made me become so involved with the comic.

In any case, I'm looking forward to whatever will happen to BiM! Cheers everyone!
Aston Whiteman 28th Oct 2019, 1:14 AM edit delete reply
I think the story is your child.

You like what it offers you with comments, fans, Discord etc.

But after what you said isn't it time to move on?

Everyone wants option A.

Thank you so much for your time and effort.

We all look forward to seeing the real ending of Mine.

Maybe after Christmas?
Vanya 30th Oct 2019, 11:22 PM edit delete reply
Option A sounds better. I'll take satisfying conclusions over reboots any day. This has been an absolute blast, and I'm honestly surprised it's gone on this long. You've been a fantastic host for this story. Take care.